All I can think right now is "urgh".
God only gives us what we can take. Really? Urgh, I'm tired, I've lost 5 kilos and I didn't have a lot to lose, I'm sad, depressed, forgotten about.
God, please fill me again. I feel empty and alone, even though I know this happens to a lot of other people. I found a support page for daughters without mums, thank God. I now belong to two groups - one for pregnancy and infant loss and now learning to live without my Mum, who was an absolutely important person in my life. Urgh.
I had so much more plans with Mum. I wasn't ready to lose Mum yet. I still want advice. I still want our chats. I still want our shopping trips. I still want to vent and complain with someone who completely understands me. I still want to go out for lunch. All these things are not the same without Mum.